You are rare
I must let you know,
some of the traits that you exhibit, I admire greatly.
I salute your deeply planted thirst for Truth and higher knowledge.
I salute your interest in words like these that otherwise mostly the elderly or the rare middle-aged ones resort to.
I salute you for not getting carried away with the mundane or the hackneyed.
And above all, I salute your ability to be vulnerable and talk and write about your innermost demons.
(The demons that, according to you, have made your life miserable or are not allowing you to really live.)
You are rare and one of a kind as well.
(But Truth be told, sure it is not if you are rare enough to dodge the "ego boost" that your Mind may have packaged the above sentence into.)
Either way, I am honored to have known you.
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I cannot truly help you
I still viscerally remember the innocence in your earnest voice when you asked ...
"Do you think you can help me?"
I was taken aback by the question for sure, as my mind bombarded me with very many responses.
But I managed to stand my ground and gave you an answer. Able I was to find the "right" one.
Yes, I gave you the Truth ...
"I do not know if I can help you."
And if further Truth be told, I cannot truly help you.
Because I have come to realize that one cannot really help another.
One can only guide the other to arrive at such a realization on their own.
And it is then that they will begin to help themselves
For it is not that "God helps those, who help themselves"
That is a half-baked statement that gets tossed around
to keep the followers and devotees content with their "business".
The Truth is this ...
Once one needs no one else's help, they become God themselves.
~~~
Your (big) problems are not why you're tired.
You must have come across the saying that the most big or complicated problems have the simplest of the answers or solutions?
Why is that so?
Why does such a statement exist and what does it really imply?
Ever wonder, how did such a "complicated problem" begin to exist in the first place?
(Ponder over it for a while before reading the next lines.)
(Please do).
A "complicated problem" is either a cumulative layering of multiple simple problems
or it is actually a simple problem masking a very deep or serious Truth.
Yes.
The Truth surfaces itself as a problem to the untrained Mind.
So dear friend, your problems are not really "big", they appear so to you.
You are not tired of your problems, you are tired of running away from them, basking in them and from having made them your own.
You have not yet had even a glimpse of the Truth underneath,
Once you begin to do so, your problems will start thinning out as well.
~~~
What does it mean to really LIVE? (You tell me).
Humans forget, that before they become the names, roles, professions, relation-labels, expectations and other such words that are stamped on them,
they are first "Human Beings", a biologically whole organism.
And like any other organism, there is really only one thing to be done.
To blossom ...
To thrive ... and ...
To LIVE ...
To acknowledge that one does not know "What is it to really live"
is, of course, the most honest and innocent thing to say,
but at the same time,
also the most bizarre and unnatural thing.
Why the latter?
Because in saying that, one is essentially saying,
"I do not know how to blossom, thrive or live, the very things that are my only birthright."
or,
"I do not know how to do the thing that I am here to do."
So dear friend,
although I thoroughly understand the pickle you are stuck in,
I cannot pull you out of it.
I could tell you what it means to LIVE (for me),
which your Mind most likely will find "interesting", "thought-provoking" and associate other such "nonsensical" adjectives,
but it will not, in the slightest sense, be of use to the organism that is you.
The only thing that I can say is this ...
To know what it means to really Live,
you must thoroughly examine, in time and space, why are you not already living today.
What it is that is really blocking you from living.
Examine these things from a "distance", be crystal clear in your asks and the answers you shall receive.
The moment will speak to you and you will notice all that you have been missing.
And as you begin doing so, you will slowly, like a moth unfurling its wings for the first time,
begin to really LIVE.
Thank you.