"
I was theirs.
How could they just leave me?
They loved me. They took me in.
Why did they leave me?
"
The pain of separation is still fresh.
Even though it was years ago.
Even to this day,
you await someone.
Perhaps over a promise or some long gone hope.
But dear human,
It will only keep you from what you await.
Like it always has.
Because,
What you truly await,
is slipping by.
What you truly seek,
cannot seek you back.
Because,
As always, you have failed to See.
As always, you insist to not See.
No one truly promised you anything.
You promised yourself
to be kept from that which you await.
And you have kept the promise splendidly.
The weight of your Mind
has not bothered you enough
to question it.
Because you have not even Felt it.
The weight of your Self
has not registered either.
Because you are too vested in it.
Because you are
living as it,
living in it,
living with it.
You have not allowed the Truth
to calm you down enough
to stop chasing the lies.
Lies, that you know by the labels
of fun or excitement,
and also of sadness, boredom, and angst.
A day will come...
when your hiding will reveal itself,
when your silent rants and complaints
will reverberate back into your ears,
and claw back at you.
A day will come...
when the insipidity latent in your life
will burst through the colorful illusions
you happily escape to,
revealing their true colors - Pain.
A day will come ...
...
Will !?
Who am I kidding?
"Will" does not exist.
No such day "will" come.
That day is Today.
Today,
it is your Turn.
To Take.
Or to Leave.
You have what you have.
Take it or Leave it.
Nothing is Yours anyway.
If you do not like it today
you will not like it tomorrow.
Take it or Leave it,
Today.
Today. Today. Today.
You are who you are Today.
Life is what it is Today.
You have what you have Today.
Take it or Leave it.
You will be who You are Today.
Life will be what it is Today.
You will have what you have Today.
Take it or Leave it.
And you must
Decide
Today.