Desiring

is at the center of the existence of man.

His life revolves around what he desires,

how long has he been desiring them for,

what external things or people his desires depend on,

his plans and schemes about obtaining them "efficiently",

AND

which "next" desires are "in line",

or will replace his current set of desires once he "gets them".

(Side note, he will never get them.)

The moment he awakes,

other than whatever boatload of involuntary thoughts that cruise through his consciousness,

his desires and the many, many hows related to his desires,

fully dominate it.

These hows pull him this way and that,

make him experience fleeting emotions that change every now and then.

What is more on top of his desires and the related hows,

are mini goals linked to them...

"I must get this to XYZ"

"Dammit, I missed the deadline!"

"I have to contact ABC by so and so date"

"If s(h)e does not want to meet me today, it's over!"

"I just lost a "plate" I was "spinning", I must find another one!"

"If ABC does not get what I gave them to XYZ by tomorrow, I am doomed"

...

Yes.

His desires, the hows, and the goals emanating from them keep pulling his strings

and make his puppet dance of an existence even more puppet-like.

...

I've heard someone say ...

"Desire is the contract you make to stay unhappy until you get what you want"

To which I will say,

though it probably more than helped a lot to straighten-out during the times it was said,

it is of no use today.

Because today, it will but tap people on the shoulders,

only have their attention for a minute or a half,

and they will slip right back into their business of endless chasing.

Because no matter how sincere of a human being produced the statement,

most people's minds today, supercharged by the phenomenon which is "2020",

have made them forget their sincerity outright.

Because most do not even know if they are happy or unhappy at a given moment.

Because the mind-fullness of their minds are blurring the lines

of "happy" vs "unhappy" as they live their days stuck in a cloudy haze of "somewhere in between".

...

I realize it may look like I am shooting down Desire.

Oh no no no, the entity Desire itself is not the problem.

The elephant in the room I am highlighting is not one of "To desire is to sin"

or that of "You must never desire".

After all...

Desire is the thing that separates man from the beasts of the wilderness.

It is the very nucleus of that which makes him obtain the obtainable

or reach the unfathomable!

Instead,

what I intend to shine massive stadium-post lights on,

and the absolute deathlike disease that I want you to at least glimpse,

is that amidst the hows, the neverending questions, and the illusionary goals

related to every single thing a man desires,

he misses one consideration by a long long longshot...

Why he desires what he desires

...

Yes.

Because he rarely questions the seeds of his

D E S I R E S,

questions such as...

how or when he started desiring them,

where he is headed with them,

what extent of his humaneness he exchanged for each one of them,

what (not who) he has become carrying and catering to them,

...

they continue to latch on to him like bees to a beehive,

finding a home in him, all while encompassing him in a satanic cloud

of misjudgment, treachery, indecision, deceit, jealousy, hope, guilt,...

...

That is the predicament that I want you to realize.

The unending, never-questioned or challenged, full-of-mind desiring,

that just does not stop,

and kills every inch of the human in the human-being,

much, much before the leftover -

an unrecognizably disgusting and putrid of an organism -

takes his last breath.

Thank you.